About me and my art.
On this page you will discover more about me personally, my motivation as an artist and my art. You can find my artist biography here.
I was born and raised in Vienna, as the oldest of three siblings. After many years abroad and a few years in Upper Austria, I ended up in Strobl am Wolfgangsee. For a long time I was an involuntary globetrotter and lived in more countries than I care to remember. My quick introduction was often, “I live on three continents, but have nowhere to call home.” That didn’t serve me well. After working in Africa for 20 years, the nomadic lifestyle became too much for me. This break-in was the beginning of the break-through of my inner artist.
The desire for artistic activity has always been there in my life, but it was buried for a long time. Like an indefinable subliminal longing. My own perfectionism and that of my surroundings kept me from daring to begin in an imperfect way. Only through the healing work of God did I achieve more freedom and courage to be myself. Especially the latest series reflects my struggle with perfectionism and human imperfection.
One of my main inspirations is nature. Especially light and water are a repeated theme in my art because they touch me deeply. I also love strong colors, color harmonies, color gradients. In abstract art I can make colors the central theme.
Art for me is an attempt to transcend our human (verbal) forms of expression with intuitive paintings in a wordless way. Process painting grows out of the subconscious and arises in interaction with God’s Spirit. It is an expression of transcendence, which I myself often can only glimpse, but which will encounter the viewers and speak to them. With or without words.
Fine Art between Beauty and Brokenness
Beauty and brokenness – a contradiction? In my painting they are central aspects that form an intriguing contrast.
On the one hand, there is the human longing for perfect beauty; and on the other hand, there is a beauty that is expressed precisely in imperfection and in our human brokenness. This is a tension that has preoccupied me for a long time and fascinates me beyond comprehension.
And this ( seeming ) contradiction is therefore also reflected in my textured paintings: the fractures that arise in the marble dust structure without my intervention and which I cannot influence, are for me an expression of human imperfection and limitation. In addition, the harmonious color glazes and color gradients, which for me – they too, despite all imperfection – express beauty and perfection.
Beauty in Imperfection
The statement “In imperfection lies true beauty,” corresponds to the Japanese concept Wabi-Sabi.
And this view from Japan has accompanied me for a long time in my photographic work: my camera is always looking for the grace in simple everyday things, the beauty of inconspicuous details by the wayside. A simple cropping of a picture thus reveals to me the beauty of the seemingly banal, the ugly and the flawed. It fascinates me how precisely in the imperfection of many things a great beauty is hidden!
On the other hand, I also long for aesthetic perfection and beauty in symmetry, perfection and radiant splendor. Perhaps also because I come from a family of perfectionists. For far too long I have believed that perfection is the only goal and that I only deserve praise and recognition through perfect performance. In this respect, it was a long path of relearning for me to also accept imperfection and to appreciate its beauty.
So it is only in recent years that I have learned to appreciate the beauty of imperfection. Possibly this has taken place at the same time as my discovery of process painting, because the one probably (only) makes the other possible: in process painting I have to get used to results which do not correspond to my common idea of perfection and beauty.
Longing for Transcendence
Even those who do not come from a perfectionist background like me know this longing for genuine perfection. This longing is in all of us, because we are obviously all looking for something that transcends our human limitations. Some speak of salvation or eternity. Others call it enlightenment or nirvana. Some talk of heaven on earth. Others rave about the experience of the supernatural or the intrusion of the divine into everyday life.
All this can probably be summed up by the term transcendence.
Transcendence is also a recurring theme in my paintings. Because my artworks live from and out of the tension between imperfection and the longing for perfect beauty and transcendence.
Living in the Tension
Where I previously used to fall short is now a focus in my work: appreciating the fragile, the flawed, the inadequate – which the cracks and fractures in the marble powder structure illustrate well. It’s similar to the practice of Kintsugi: a Japanese ceramic repair technique in which repaired areas are coated with gold lacquer. An appreciation and display of flawedness rather unknown in the West.
It was a longer process for me to accept my own weaknesses and even to accept them as a valuable part of reality. And subsequently to embrace the imperfection of humanity itself – and thus also the imperfections of my fellow human beings. At some point I realized that my constant striving for perfection had its roots in a longing for fulfilment and acceptance.
Fulfillment and being accepted are themes that run like a thread through my life: only when I understood in my heart how perfectly God loves me despite my imperfections was this longing truly satisfied. Through my deepening relationship with God, I can experience this perfect love more and more. In this way, little by little, old wounds have been healed and I have come to myself and to an undreamed-of freedom. Through my faith I experience fulfillment in the healing relationship with the invisible God and experience His perfect love and acceptance.
This profound experience, this contact with the invisible world, naturally finds its echo in my paintings. It remains an imperfect (!) attempt, but all this is an important part of my life and fine art: to live in the tension between embracing my imperfection and longing for perfection and transcendence.
Therefore, my motto, my blessing and my invitation to you, the viewers of my art work, is, “May my paintings bring you into contact with the invisible reality of heaven.”